This clip is a year old..cracks me up though.
Luke always spent xmas with me and the kids, then with us when I married.Xmas 2007 he brought Nikki home to meet the family. Wearing an eye patch and experiencing double visiona nd headaches. The following week he was to have the MRI scan.
I spent the last week alone. The kids got back at 4pm so this afternoon was nice.I needed the break and the fact it was xmas really wasn't an issue.
Merry Christmas friends and here's hoping for some good times in 2010.
I'll ;leave you with some Xmas tunes..
TOP RETRO
TOP CHEESE
TOP 'IF SOMEWHAT OVER-PLAYED' XMAS SONG EVAR
This is Sylvie's favourite. We have to watch it before bed every night. She nearly knows all the words.
Im conflicted.
I feel more alive than ever before. Happier in myself and appreciative of what I have.I am in love, really powerfully, omg I can't believe I tried to settle for less and muddle through. I feel I've finally woken after living my whole life half asleep. In a fog.
I feel sad for the person I used ot be. It seems such a waste of a life.
From death comes life..
I'd go back in a heartbeat, spend my whole life that way to have him back though. It kills me to think that his life..her life..were sacrificed in order for me to finally be happy.
Whilst I was picking myself up and dusting myself off. Falling in love. Her life was being snuffed out. Her will and fierce joy for life, her loyalty and selfishless changed me. But I would go back to living in dense fog for her bright flame to reignite.
From death comes life..
Because I am happy, because I am alive and feeling things...things I have buried and not dealt with are bubbling beneath the surface. I totally shut down last year. Often not noticing weeks go by. Not knowing what month it was. I was numb.
Now I need help. I feel Im on the verge of some kind of meltdown but still fighting it off. Greg and I have chatted, and I have talked to SOnny's health worker and we have decided that grief counselling is necessary.
This is a terrifying prospect. It means acknowledging it. It means admitting that he is gone.ANd even writing that makes me choke.
My next tattoo will read..'From death comes life'
Ok..now to lighten the mood..some pics.
Here's some a little diff ...shoosh, don't tell my dad, mk?
He's looking vert smart with his hair cut, is he checking his e-mails>?! x read more
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